That is my morning ; realizing that I have no health insurance as of Wednesday of this week. Waking up to rush to the bathroom for blood to come as waves of vertigo ensue. Finally, getting to my kitchen, taking meds, and finishing online paperwork for social security. I feel a wave of emotions to say the least this morning and am challenged to take courage, peace, and direction from our Heavenly Father rather than what the world offers. It is a challenge at the very least and more profound at the core.
It has me reeling as I signed off with the interviewer from social security today. Causing me to think about "adaptation" ; altering, modification, redesign. The process that an organism or species becomes better suited to their environment. Maybe what I feel is a spiritual revolution within my soul drawing me closer to our Heavenly Father that serves to encapsulate me in the process.
I feel like adaption is what I've had to do over the course of a lifetime. Can you relate? You change jobs, move from one place to the other, have kids, have a health concern/crisis...ohh, the list goes on for each of us. It is a list that causes each of us to adapt in order to evolve. For me it was a cancer diagnosis in 2015 that rocked my world in a way that I will never be the same. It caused me to ponder, get real, and direct with our Heavenly Father. Ultimately, leading me into a journey of relentless trust and faith that will last me a lifetime.
This Sunday as we celebrated the gift of Easter. I sat through worship writing notes to myself. I could not stop writing "you must write". And, this morning through the bathroom runs, the pain, and vertigo I started to write this blog. It is an extraordinary process in my mind that kingdom things come first . It is a deep knowledge that the world has spun before me, while I'm writing, and far after I'm gone it will still spin. It is a bottomless spring of faith and love that I write that I might ignite others that face trepidation in their lives. That they would see peaceful resolve in my words that would serve to inspire their own adaption and evolution in faith.
When I stopped writing I saw how deep my faith runs and am praising our Heavenly Father for perspective. I praise Him for; writing, solace in words, and His glory shining through my words.
Peace be with you- Sherry
Updates:
- I'll be without insurance as of Wednesday this week. I have done paperwork and interview for Social Security and am hopeful that justice will win and I will be approved in the coming months.
- Emily has applied for Social Security too. I'm hopeful God's favor will shine on her and she will be approved once her paperwork is processed.
- I have a donation list for The Artroom and would love for you to donate materials or recycled supplies. Feel free to message me to ask for a list or donate.
- Dale graduates in just a month from high school. We want to celebrate as a family with a vacation....yeah, we haven't had one in a very long time. We aren't sure of where to go or what to do but feel like we need to celebrate with jubilation.
