Today the sun is shining, the birds are chirping, and the Tedster took a vacation day. I look around me & feel blessed inside. I decide to go make a post about this blessed day on Facebook and wish others peace & serenity. Then it hits me as I start my post. I glance down at the time & see the date & my heart becomes heavy & my mind is a swirling pool of memories.
May 25 is my dad's birthday and he's been gone for 23 years now. He passed away one week before my wedding . Each May 25 I mourn the loss of having the "fixer" aka my dad in my life. My dad was my best confidant in the world, he didn't judge me, and he never tried to fix me. He accepted his daughter with her far out creativity as she was. He loved me, taught me independence, and self reliance.
I'm reminded of a quote from Lew French who does amazing stonework artistry. He said, "Over the years I have found that a perceived problem can often turn out to be a blessing in disguise. Setbacks or problems make you work harder at developing alternate concepts so you have more choices to use in the overall design". Granted, Lew French, is talking about working on a field-stone patio but what he said is of relevance to my & my heart.
My dad used to listen to me cry, rant, or worry over a problem and then say, "what are you going to do about it?". He never gave me the answer but would try to help me in the solution I chose. When he passed away I felt a great loss because there was no one to listen to me, to hear my dreams or my fears. What happened was that with his passing is that I gained a greater interpersonal relationship with God. The setback of not having my dad made me work harder to seek the Lord in my life. To rely and trust in my Heavenly Father like I had my earthly dad. And, it taught me that I had to work really hard to free myself of trust issues and to accept love.
So, yeah, today is May 25th, my dad's birthday. The sun is shining , the birds are singing, and my serenity in my spirit comes not from the earthly father that I lost but the precious relationship I developed with my Heavenly Father after.
Hoping each of you take some serenity time this week to enjoy the sunshine, hear a bird chirp, or enjoy having your fam or friends around.
Peace be with you- Sherry
Updates:
- I'm still waiting to see if I will be approved to get my cancer meds via the drug company. Prayfully, I will hear from them this week.....if not Friday I'll call them.
- Yesterday, our precious Emily, had another grand mall seizure. It's a setback for her physically and emotionally. She has taken the summer off to pray over her career path. The latest seizure brought back old self doubts to her spirit. Pray for her this week that God guide and direct her path & keep her safe.
- I'm praying over my ability to open my artroom back up in July for a handful of classes. I really miss the buzz of creativity for the kids & adults that have came. Dale & Emily are willing to help with the classes in July & so I'm praying I will be feeling stronger by then.
- Our little library is open & ready for people to start coming by. We regularly check it to see what is going out & in. I was blessed last week to come and see two girls riding bikes in the neighborhood. As, I was getting out of the car I heard voices & looked the girls were at the Little Library finding books....God is good. If you have books you would like to share feel free to drop them off at our house or in the Little Library itself.
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